Courage and Pride

A real courage is when you know you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mocking Bird

I learnt this quote from the Harper Lee's novel, To Kill A Mockingbird, and to be honest, at first I disagreed. I mean, I didn't understand why you kept on fighting when you knew you were losing. I thought it was useless. And such a thing could not be called a real courage, it was something you called imprudence.

Then today, I realised that I was the one who was being foolish.

If you stop fighting, at the very end you will just blame yourself. Blaming those who win upon you, blaming God for not letting you win, blaming yourself for being a fool. You will regret all things that happened. But if you fight until your last breath, even though you lose, you don't have anything to regret. You will be proud of yourself for being able to give your best. The greatest winning may not be the thing that you want at the beginning, but it may be something within yourself. Part of yourself that is able to hold your head upright. Part of yourself that is always called pride.

Yes, human is a very selfish creature. Even at the end, all things that we fight for will bring us back to ourselves. Humans fight for their prides.

I wrote this not because of I had nothing to do, no, this post would be my mark, my promise to the world, that what I feel for him is real and thus, I will fight for him til the end. I will fight until my last breath, even though I know she likes him as well and he probably likes her in return. Yes, despite the fact that my chance is really low. Be ready, Mr 17, xoxo